Woohoo! I have enrol Practical driving lessons! It will commence on 15th,16th,17th,18th,21th,22th,23th september 2009! Shiok. I want to quickly learn and drive car! But, will I pass the TP practical test? I wonder. No worries bah, One thing at a time. But before I learn this practical driving, I have to take my Final Theory Test which is on 17th Aug, 10.30am. Hope I will pass one time!

Enrol as student of the driving school , I can say is that there is pros and cons. Pros is: It is certified(Safer), Easier to pass TP test?(Alot of people say lei). Cons is: Too expensive! Too many lessons(Average must learn 22-25 lessons, Crap!) Anyway, I already enrolled, so no point brooding over the money.... I spend 600plus liao for 7 lessons plus the enrolment fees!! CB, FUCKING EXPENSIVE! Think i will spend about 2000dollars on driving. Sian. Cannot buy car too after I passed. Hope I can rent car sometimes to drive out...

Watch the Liverpool Game agains Singapore. All I can say is.....Liverpool shouldn't come Singapore to make us feel embarrassed. Is like, Big Boys against small kids lah. Though Singapore really play well 1st half. But 2nd half was really a 5-star performance by Suckers(Liverpool)... Kuyt was the engineer of the whole 2nd half and plus the youngster Nemeth, The LiverLose really damn good. With Torres and Alonso Up....Singapore was really no match. I was hoping Singapore can at least draw with "Losers will never walk alone" but, haiz....I can say is South east asia football is too crap compared to International and World Class Football......

3 more weeks to go! Monday will be the submission of HRM, Wednesday will be the presentation of Psychology, Thursday will be the UT role-play(That sucking subject) and Friday will be the HRM presentation AND Saturday is Psychology TEST! So I think after this coming week, I should say I am much more relaxed? MBS access submission on the following monday, Presentation on the following friday... WTF.KNN!! I got to bear this last 3 weeks!!

This few days I have been thinking of Volleyball. I was on the net and saw redsports.sg and suddenly thought of the article that my whole team was in during 2007 north zone finals, where we lost to ximin sec 25-18, 25-11. (Sad) The article was crap....They said it was David and Goliath!! WTF. We are not little david can!! though we still lost to the giants.... Sian. So, I quickly went to the website to search for the 2 years ago article!! I found it !! it was like so long ago!! ahaha. Antique sia!!! I think the article was like so crap.... Say the enemy say until so powerful. DIAO. Actually, we are not bad ok! Just that we were not anxious abt the final! Haiz. Nonetheless, it is 2 years ago thing, I cant go back to the past, I cant continue to play the winning ways. I just cant join TP volleyball. I doesnt have this chance man. Regret joining TP, I should have join NYP, NP or even SP?! but Not TP!! TP is too strong!!

I passed my BTT! Woohoo!

Suddenly, I am thinking of volleyball again. I am thinking of the time where my team and I get second in north zone and getting quarter finals in national zone.

What should I put it? Business Finance Test over, MBS online test over, APEL and BOE stuffs handed in, I should say I still have a long way to go! However, I left 4 weeks in which I will not attending UT lessons anymore!! Plus, I will skip one lesson of UT, which will left me 3 lessons!! Horray! I don't give a fucking damn care to this CDS! It's Crap!! As long I pass, I am satisfied with it.

Aim:
MBS: B+
HRM:A
Business Finance:A
APEL:Pass
BOE:Pass
Psychology:A
UT:C+ or B

These will make up at least gpa 3.5? I hope so and my cumulative gpa will be around 3.5? I hope so. So long I am still on the 3.smth mark, I am glad. All the subjects I can put in a little bit more of effort, but not for UT!! Fuck It UT!!

17-7-2009. 3 mths after the death of Wei Cai. I still rmb it is 13-4-2009. I wanted to post this on monday but this few days I am busy, thus I didnt post. So, today, I will post my feelings. What is it like after you like inside the coffin? What is the feeling of dying? lying motionless? I wonder. From Monday, I have been thinking of death. How is it feel like losing your love ones? How is it feel like when you aren't able to filfull your life long dreams when you are dead? I guess nobody knows until you lie inside the "bed".

Life. It is what we used to define as precious. But how must we really maintained it? Family. It is what we used to define as warmth, But how am I going to maintained this warmth and love in this Lee Family? Marriage. It is what we used to define as the end road of love. So how are we going to prevent this marriage from becoming a end road of love? I really hope that I all I can see peace, warmth, love and harmony in family. But Why? God is testing me, testing this family I should say. Everyday, I will hear tons and tons of quarrelling between Mum and Dad. Why is this happening? FUCK! I cannot take this anymore. Yet, I am still surviving in this family. Elder sister is getting divorce. I should, already. Seeing Trevor, I felt pity about it. He cannot have a complete family background. I should I am lucky because I managed to get a " complete family" for 18years. But, Trevor is just 4years old and I can't even have this kind of feeling. Never Mind! Jiu Jiu(uncle) which is me will give all I can to ensure that you grow up fearless and happiness!!

2nd sister is going to marry, but, is she scared of divorce after seeing so many cases? Yesterday morning, Mum received a call from an auntie that her daughter is getting divorce after having 2 kids. WTF! I know it is common nowadays, but cant adults live in harmony and love? Why must they always ended up divorce? Well, I am still 18 and things are yet to be learned. Perhaps when i get my bloody cert and go out work, I will only know what it is like to be an adult's mentality.

Phew! Just left 5 more weeks and I am off to holidays! Please, god, let it be a quick one! Now I have left BTT, Psychology Presentation, UT Peformance project, UT research presenstation, MBS access project, Psychology test and 3 Main Exam Papers!! Yesterday I just cleared away my APEL service reflection along with BOE proposal and GOventure game. Today, I cleared my Business Finance Test!! I think i can get 17/20? I really hope!

Went to play soccer today with Jasper and Faiz after the Business finance test under the fucking hot sun. I got blister!! Wtf. I hate blisters!! No mood playing today and suddenly felt my confidence has gone ever since I play damn lousy at the AYG samsung fustal challenge. I have completely lost the stamina, the drive to play and chase the ball around. I am not focus enough. Damn. I wish I can be like last time where i play damn zai( hahah) at sec sch.

Watch ' He is just not that into you' acted by a whole bunch of super actors and actresses like ben affleck, kevin connolly, jennifer connelly, jennifer aniston, scarlett johansson, drew barrymore, justin long and etc. Average show i should say but I learn alot about relationships. I can apply this show concept in my life. " She is just not that into you". True True. If she is no that into you ( Samuel listen up if u see this post ), then so be it, why think about it. Go watch this movie and you will understand

Stressed? Boring? Fat? Tired? All these seems to be the latest words that i am using lei. Sian. Really damn sian. Felt excited when i initially got into polytechnic , but not now. I really hate this polytechnic life!!!!

I want to end this sem and start next sem and end yr 2 and start yr 3 and end yr 3!!!!

20th july, monday, 10.30am will be the day that i will realised how dumb am i...... I am going to take the Basic theory test. Woots! I want to get all correct! I am determined to drive car.

I am recovering from my shoulder injury! Can lift chest press and barbells tmr ler bah! I hope so.

Fuck this life! I hate it man. Totally hate it. If dying is not painful, i will choose to die instead of living in this sick and tiring world. I wish to live, live happily, but this things keep forcing to think otherwise. I want to be cheerful, I want to be joker, I want to make people laugh, but why cant they let me continue... Seriously I cannot take this fuck up life. I am not what I used to be....

Ever since I went to poly, something changes. I want to be 3 yr old child! I want to be a child who only knows how to eat, play and sleep. If now I can choose not to grow up to become more matured, I will be a child instead...

If you guys want to make my life miserable, come , lai lai, i am not scared. I will tell u all, come on and make me crazy. Let see who will be the crazy one. __ __ FUCK!